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i know you

Hey – don’t I know you?   You’re the woman down the street from me…the one that I look up at briefly at and give a quick wave to as I keep walking my dog.  Or you’re the colleague at work that I chat with sometimes in the breakroom – the woman who is both on-trend who has gorgeous family pictures that decorate Facebook and your laptop screen.  You are probably a kind, empathetic woman who cries sometimes (or maybe a lot) while in the car because that’s when you think about all the things.  You put up a nice front and are easy to talk to, you are always willing to help others, even when inside you are falling apart and feel helpless.  You are strong and don’t yet know it, because you feel so trapped.

I know you.  I know that you don’t talk to anyone about your problems unless it’s someone you can embarrass yourself in front of, and even with them, at your lowest – this problem might be too hard to share, you think.  I’ve been where you are.  Hiding the pain of a broken relationship, and living a lie of keeping up appearances because you feel guilty about all of it.  Guilty because you think you will ruin your children, or you will shame your family.  Maybe you are still trying to convince yourself that you can suck it up ‘for the sake of the kids’ and you’ll deal with divorce after the kids are out of the house.

I’m here to let you know that we are all here, all around you… and I know it’s been hard, and I know you are tired and I know that you know there is something more and better in your future.   It really is – I promise, if you just keep moving forward and keep picturing that end result.  If you know there is something better for you, there is.  The end.

I went through a separation.  I came through a divorce.  It was one of the hardest times of my life, especially with two little girls in tow.  It didn’t help that my ex was a very controlling, mentally abusive individual that was near impossible to co-parent with, much less divorce.  I got through it, and I look back with pride at how I grew, what I learned, and how I found myself. I didn’t have a lot of family support, but I found a couple of women that I now call best friends and who helped me more than they will ever know.  I still need to get through many years of co-parenting with my ex, and it is still not easy (that is quite possibly the understatement of the century), but I continue to learn and collect all the pieces of me that I had let fall and that had once made up my collective courage and self-esteem.  I am rebuilt; much stronger, much more loving and capable – and today…a much better mom, and now wife to an amazing partner.  If you haven’t gotten to your happy place yet, you will.  Keep persisting.

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Hey! Hi! An-yong-ha-sae-oh! I’m Jenn, and I am here to share what has worked for me (and what hasn’t) while going through my separation, divorce, remarriage, and blended family. Wow, that's a lot, but I've been through a lot and here is where I share it with you!

2 Responses

  1. Linda
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    Thank you SO much for creating this site and sharing your experiences. I’ve read quite a few of your posts and could just sob because I can completely identify with so much of what you have expressed.
    I can’t even begin to tell you how comforting it is to know that there is someone else out there who has gone through this “hell” and has survived beautifully.
    Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being so real and so dedicated to supporting other women.

  2. Jennifer
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    Linda, I can’t tell you how much your words mean to me! I’m so glad I can help you or anyone feel less alone…it is such a hard road that some of us go through and so much of it is alone.

    I’m so glad to know that you are out there… Thank you so much for your sweet comment!

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